So a friend who reads my blog, when I actually post, made a comment to me the other day about the change in my blog. She is sad that I've gotten away from the personal posts and that I don't seem to have that personal connection to even non-personal ones.
This got me thinking about what my blog is all about, what I started it to be, and where I want it to go. I started it to put my perspective of the world out there. I think I'm a fairly odd duck, so I have interests in a strange combination of things. I was enjoying the journey and seeing my ideas categorized, until I had an issue with putting something out there that was personal but also included someone else and it causing problems.
I learned that people will infer what they want from what you write, unless you are explicit. That can and has totally worked in my favor. However, that time, it did not. I should have known that the whole situation was really messed up in the fact that it happened anyway, but that was a lesson I learned from later, non-digital issues. So I paused on my jaunt and took a step off the path.
I decided, possibly in error, to let that experience direct the next section of my blogging experience. It made me start hesitating in posting what I wanted to, worrying about what people could think I was saying instead of what I was saying. So I started posting less often and removed a lot of the personality from the posts. I stayed in that rut for while. Somewhere along the way, I hit another bump in the road.
This bump was much bigger than the last. I had a supervisor use my blog against me. I was taught the lesson that even hiding my actual identity - which I've tried hard to do, if you didn't notice (no actual names, no pictures with my face visible) - didn't protect me from having this piece of my life come up and bite me in the butt. So the posting dwindled again. And it has stayed at a measly trickle ever since.
So after the conversation with the friend, I find myself asking all sorts of questions about my blog. Do I want to continue to blog? If yes, do I want to continue in this random vein, or do I want to focus it more? If I continue to blog, should I come out of the digital closet and be proud of being this blog's author publicly?
I'll be thinking on this topic for a time and I have a feeling that until I decide I won't be posting much of anything. I will ask a favor of my readers - please give me feedback. I'd love to know what you think of my story, what I post, how you think I should answer the above questions. Start a dialogue with me about what you want or, even, expect from me and this space.
If you don't feel comfortable leaving the info in the comments, comment a brief "I'd like to talk to you personally", and I'll contact you so we can talk.
Can't wait to hear what you think. In the meantime, I'll be thinking hard on all of this while I get ready for the holiday season.
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